The last several months were as if not from my life:
sometimes it seemed to me that I’ll wake up one day and find out that it was
just a dream. At times, it was scary, at times it was incredibly tough, at
times I felt as if I’m helpless and losing every little hint of hope.
However, things turned out to be maybe even better
than we initially expected. Yes, yes, it’s a bit tough for me to confess but we
didn’t expect that our surrogate will get pregnant from the very first attempt.
Just imagine: our first IVF ever. I know that so many people keep trying again
and again and nothing works so I was very afraid of failure. I know this is not
right. After all, hope and positive approach is above everything else, but
having heard some stories of recurrent unsuccessful IVFs we just didn’t want to
be disappointed at once. And please don’t throw stones at me. It was a tough
time both for me and for all of my family: tiring flights to Kiev, waiting,
first hormonal stimulation with dozens of painful injections, painful surgery
of eggs retrieval and then waiting again. Getting our positive beta test from
Biotexcom clinic was really the sweetest and the most expectant present we
could ever get for Christmas. Ok, and then waiting again (let’s not forget
about this most essential part of our surrogacy journey). They said that
normally they do first ultrasound two weeks after beta test but in our case it
was several days earlier (am I that lucky again?). They say everything’s fine
and they will keep monitoring our surrogate mother and her pregnancy.
Of course, it’s too soon to say “done” because the
first trimester of pregnancy is so fragile. I know it from my personal
experience: when I was pregnant with Den I was hospitalized with slight
bleeding. It was on the 9th week of pregnancy. They said I was
running through a big risk of placental abruption and thus losing pregnancy. Hopefully,
we called the doctor at once and they did everything possible to save pregnancy.
So I know very well how it feels and what it really is.
That’s why I keep thinking about that woman whom I
still don’t know but who carries my baby. She definitely has her own
child/children because this is their requirement for intended surrogate
mothers. So I hope she cares well of herself and my baby as much as she cared
about her own pregnancy.
Loads of love on all of you!
